Lately at work I have just been feeling like I'm not getting anywhere.
I went for another job and again I didn't get it. Got all the positive comments as usual but Ultimately they chose someone else. Its nothing against the other person however just makes me feel like something I am doing is wrong. I am hitting all of the needs for my job and in a lot of cases exceeding them.
Just sitting in a really dark place at the moment it seems and I am having trouble getting out of this particular rut. I am trying to think positively and focus on the meditation techniques I know and it is working to a degree however most of the time I am just overwhelmed and feeling helplessness.
Its starting to impact my day because I'm getting insomnia a bit and not sleeping anywhere near as much as I should be.
I am trying to write it down as it seems to help me acknowledge the problem and face it head on instead of hiding from it like the past. I cant afford to let the black dog win over again. Too many good things in my life worth being there for.