foolish_hyena

I have had much time to think and have some up with nothing, not a bloody thing. I can only feel contempt for myself for never being able to go up to and talk to someone. its not that I cant I have his aversion to doing so almost questioning myself why would they want to talk to me or me to them for that matter. I alway feel like I have nothing to bring to the table. I have been told from several people I feel close to that I am in fact a pleasure to be around but it just makes me feel worse, no clue why.

I feel alone where I am right now and I know I have those around me that care about me its just not the same as someone to care for. but I know that how I am now I won't find anyone.

Just wanted to stop in and tell you all that I am still alive, and hopefully I will be back with a brighter outlook. I miss being on here with you but just can't do it right now.