flyonwall

i really wish i had something interesting to say.. something worth saying.. but i don't really.. i'm lost in a fog of loathing right now.. much if it towards the daily routine that's been a grind for quite some time now.. it feels like it's progressed beyond a grind.. Is it sad when I'm happy a caller is at least listening to what I'm saying?...
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so.. our new bar (Pandemic Nightclub) opened on saturday.. it was fantastic.. (it was also fantastic knowing 14 hour days of construction work were at an end for the most part)..

tonight however.. i'm just cold and sad and lonely.

i don't have with you me but i keep a good attitude. Do you miss me, Miss Misery, like you say you do?

so.. i got a big envelope from fanshawe today.

it takes a small envelope to say no.. but a big one on the other hand . . .

and now the having to really work hard at saving money begins... goodbye drinking in bars, goodbye buying stuff online.. goodbye other things i probably waste money on and don't realize

soo... birthday plans changed (again i think?) going to hopefully see the caddillac vamps (london burlesque group) at the last drop.. i'm not sure if anyone that reads is able/wants to come out.. but if you do.. that's awesome.. if not.. well.. not as awesome but.. meh.. life happens..

so i've decided birthdayness will occur at the salt lounge.. it's central and it's a kind of neutral ground i suppose.. no real one kind of crowd that seems to go there (granted, i tend to only go on thursday and occasionally wednesday nights..)

so... tonight was a great night out.. i went to a friend's birthday.. which was mellow.. then ended up at the orifice for the cadillac vamps burlequesue show... which was great as always.. then off to club 181.. which was fun.. better than the other time i had been there.. much dancing to good music commenced... anonym was to blame for the excessive drinking tonight...
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I really wish I didn't have to work tomorrow..
and that it somehow was the middle of a week and not a saturday night..

same story.. different week.. someone i am/was starting to like.. likes someone else.. and her and that someone else are now dating..

I really want/need to just put on music and go for a walk until i can watch the sun...
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so.. i'm still alive and such.. not much new happening in the world of steve.. or.. i suppose there is? it all seems mundane to me..

giftmas is over.. and i'm glad.. had a nice visit with my parents + their cats.. family visit with my aunt and uncle/etc. was ok.. not as gossipy/bitchy as i was expecting which was a nice surprise..

had some...
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the next person that tells me they love snow is getting kicked in the shins..

and then stuffed head first in a 4 foot snow drift..

i just walked for 2 and a half hours to go downtown and back..

i carried almost $200 in change to take to my bank.. which was closed.. so.. any bank.. they were all closed.. the framing place didn't...
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