i felt a need to update but i have nothing worth saying..
thought fragments keep flitting through my head but they're all too fleeting to try and express anything of substance...
so instead.. a quote from a tv show i watched tonight..
"A traveller reaches a large swamp and stops his horse. He sits, looking at the swamp.. trying to decide if he should go...
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thought fragments keep flitting through my head but they're all too fleeting to try and express anything of substance...
so instead.. a quote from a tv show i watched tonight..
"A traveller reaches a large swamp and stops his horse. He sits, looking at the swamp.. trying to decide if he should go...
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were i to classify today as a date.. i would say failure.. even for a first date..
however.. if i were refer to today as simply 2 people meeting and being social and such on a mostly 1 on 1 basis.. it would be passable.. somewhat..
either way.. if i had gotten more than 10 hours of sleep in the last 2 nights.. i'm sure...
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however.. if i were refer to today as simply 2 people meeting and being social and such on a mostly 1 on 1 basis.. it would be passable.. somewhat..
either way.. if i had gotten more than 10 hours of sleep in the last 2 nights.. i'm sure...
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i wrote this saturday night/sunday morning in my lj.. i wanted to post it here as well..
and.. tonight.. i went out to dissent.. now.. some may find that callous.. the day you bury a relative you still go out clubbing.. but.. see.. i realized why i was there and i had to be there tonight especially..
i dance to forget... to forget loneliness.. to...
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and.. tonight.. i went out to dissent.. now.. some may find that callous.. the day you bury a relative you still go out clubbing.. but.. see.. i realized why i was there and i had to be there tonight especially..
i dance to forget... to forget loneliness.. to...
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anonym:
I wanted just plain Rowan because it sounded like an actual name, instead of a nick. It felt more comfortable, and less fake to me. I know. I'm weird. Plus someone else has it already. Thanks, though.
murder_tramp:
Very well said.
And, thank you!
~Trampy
And, thank you!
~Trampywhy is it the ones we want.. never want us. . .
and the ones that want us.. we'll never want?
poetic justice? cruel fate?
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examples.. there are a few people i have a crush on that seem to have zero interest in me and/or are already involved in a relationship..
or the fact i seemed to ruin a guy's night when he asked...
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and the ones that want us.. we'll never want?
poetic justice? cruel fate?
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examples.. there are a few people i have a crush on that seem to have zero interest in me and/or are already involved in a relationship..
or the fact i seemed to ruin a guy's night when he asked...
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anonym:
That's the way love, lust and like works, I'm afraid. It always seems to me that when you want someone, no one you'd want is around to be there with you. On the other hand, when you have no interest in a relationship whatsoever, of any kind, the masses all seem to want a piece of you. It's a sad and cruel thing, but most things in reality are that way.
insincerity needs to be a crime.
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anonym:
I hate that at funerals. When my dad died, people kept on asking me "Are you ok?" or saying "I'm sorry." I think the best thing someone could have done is to come up to me, and say something nice about my father instead of the usual cliches. I try to do that for others at funerals. It seems a lot more compassionate and sincere.
Hey, do you have MSN?
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Hey, do you have MSN?
[Edited on Feb 26, 2005 1:34AM]
heathavoid:
*hugs* sorry to hear about your grandfather. As you know, I can empathize with you totally.
Insincerity is terrible... don't let the insincere people bring you down though.
Insincerity is terrible... don't let the insincere people bring you down though.
the mdm show at dissent. was great.. i had really high hopes.. and the whole night exceeded them by far..
a big thanks to R0wan and Co. for coming out..
and.. then saturday i celebrated my birthday.. it was really nice not to have to drive home.. i don't think i did anything overly dumb.. other than dancing like a drunken fool most of the...
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a big thanks to R0wan and Co. for coming out..
and.. then saturday i celebrated my birthday.. it was really nice not to have to drive home.. i don't think i did anything overly dumb.. other than dancing like a drunken fool most of the...
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paintedbat:
glad to hear the night was good, sorry I couldn't make it...stupid work
MDM.. tomorrow night.. dissent in london.. free if you're 19.. and if you're reading this.. i imagine you are.. if you're not..it's only 3 dollars.. doors at 930..
you can come and marvel in person at my silly.. now funny coloured hair..
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this is where pictures of me were supposed to be.. but they didn't work
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you can go visit my picture...
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you can come and marvel in person at my silly.. now funny coloured hair..
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this is where pictures of me were supposed to be.. but they didn't work
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you can go visit my picture...
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paintedbat:
wow all the way to London?!?!?! That's kinda far away
heathavoid:
bah, sorry I didn't come last night... i had to work... low-budget films have crazy schedules. SORRY! I really wanted to come.
sometimes.. or.. often times it feels I put too much stock into the things I do not have very much control over.. but then.. I sit back and think how a tenuous a grasp one has on the flow of their own life.. you can make all the decisions you want in the world.. but ultimately.. it's the situations that arise out consequence and random...
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heathavoid:
I know what you mean about that first bit of your entry... life is so.... trying sometimes, because it's frustrating how no matter what you do, some random thing can change your whole life.
woohoo red+black hair!
woohoo red+black hair!
anonym:
I'll see you tomorrow. Don't be too shy to say hello! 
i've never talked to her, i have no idea what her name is.. but i fell in love tonight for a couple hours..
then the music stopped and she disappeared.
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**edit** and in other news, met Rowan.. who was awesome..
then the music stopped and she disappeared.
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**edit** and in other news, met Rowan.. who was awesome..
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tictactoogirl:
Happy BARFday to YOU! 
anonym:
My tattoo pictures are finally up, if you're interested. I'm really happy with the end result.
new silly hair can be found in my pictures..
please excuse the muntedness of my personal appearance as i worked a 10 hour shift today.. have an inner ear infection which kept me awake for quite some time.. and.. since i was at work.. didn't care that much about my appearance.. but my hair still looked passable tonight and i can't be arsed into making...
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please excuse the muntedness of my personal appearance as i worked a 10 hour shift today.. have an inner ear infection which kept me awake for quite some time.. and.. since i was at work.. didn't care that much about my appearance.. but my hair still looked passable tonight and i can't be arsed into making...
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heathavoid:
looks good! it really suits ya!
anonym:
Sorry, won't be going to dissent on Friday. The boyfriend is coming back home for the night. I'll be there for a while on Saturday though. Then off to Club 181. Yay, barhopping. I'm Shona, by the way.
