flyonwall

So.. i'm feeling alot less dead lately.. a few stomach aches yesterday and today but those have only been lasting 10-15 minutes at a time.. which feels awesome compared to the 24/7 stomach ache i had when i first got out of the hospital..

going to spend this week here at my parent's then back to london (finally) it's by choice to stay in ridgetown.. i dont really like it here but i have a couple dr appointments this week in the area, then my presence is required/demanded for Good Friday here at my parent's house and since they're my ride back to london, that's alot of driving back and forth i'd rather not put them through.. I mean, 2 weeks of almost free food (i've felt bad and bought some groceries) and having most meals cooked for me, hell yeah sweet deal.

too bad it took almost dying to bring about..

I'm kind of optimistic today that I realized I sort of have a complete "do over" of my upper body since it's wasted away to almost nothing.. My legs have shrunk quite a bit too but now I can actually try to have upper and lower in proportion as opposed to the previous tree trunk legs of super stamina and twiggy arms with non-existent chest..

I'm sort of impatient for the dr appt on thursday so i can ask about any kind of supplements/etc. he might be able to suggest to try and start putting some weight on again.. this 109lbs thing still looks pretty gruesome in the mirror.. mostly my back/shoulder blades when i catch glimpses of them..

i've been in an old ska mood all day today.. cranked up the "This is england" soundtrack and some other older ska stuff like that today.. anyone have suggestions for must listen to songs?