flyonwall

i really wish i had something interesting to say.. something worth saying.. but i don't really.. i'm lost in a fog of loathing right now.. much if it towards the daily routine that's been a grind for quite some time now.. it feels like it's progressed beyond a grind.. Is it sad when I'm happy a caller is at least listening to what I'm saying? As opposed to listening and choosing to do the opposite anyway? I'm anxious and impatient about September.. but right now.. September still feels like the carrot on a stick of "someday soon" i've dangled in front of my face for the last few years.. I also feel very lazy lately and I really want to do things about it but.. any willpower and drive I have in the morning/day to do anything about it withers away by the time my shift is over..

I just miss alot of things right now.. quite a few of which I can't seem to put into a coherent sentence fragment..

like i said.. wish i had something worth saying..