flyonwall

i wrote this more than a year ago..

and tonight was the sequel sort of.. i've seen her around a few places/times but.. never really knew her name to go introduce myself/etc... but tonight.. met and and ended up hanging out with her and a couple other people i sorta know/am becoming friends with for an hour or so after the bar..and she was really nice and friendly.. and.. just.. wow..

so.. as disappointed as i was during the night girl i mentioned from last week wasn't out.. i'm kind of glad now because.. my head surely would have exploded..

i wish i could stop sounding like a 13 year old school girl.. but.. i haven't had a serious.. or.. really much of anything as far as a relationship goes in about 4 years now and it's depressing and soul crushing.. how do you not feel like there's some sort of serious defect or flaw in you in this kind of situation?


**edit** and. it's funny.. because.. tonight i got to see airdirie (if that's spelt really wrong, i'm sorry.. i'm really tired but wanted to get these thoughts out) for the first time in a long while..)