flyonwall

so.. it would seem the annual birthday depression is starting extra early this year..




i think a little part of me is just secretly hoping i'm preparing for the worst so when it doesn't happen.. it'll be even better.. sadly.. the rest of me is laughing at that little voice like the village idiot it normally turns out to be

this year again.. going to do what i can for damage control.. sadly.. i'm not so sure how well this ever works..

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*edit* and.. feeling better today.. i was sort of creepy but not really.. i hope..
ended up out shopping and stopped into the store i thought *girl*.. might possibly work at.. (there are 2 of them in town) and it turned out she was there.. and again she ended up seeing me first.. which makes me wonder if she has super powers of invisibility or i'm that blind.. (she's rather tall.. and everyone else that worked in the store was shorter than me..) ended up talking and visitng and whatnot for a good while which was awesome.. despite repeated glares from her manager/boss/whatever.. at me.. i bought things so there... but yeah.. it was nice to visit/talk and i was able to apologize for the mix up and whatnot for the dinner party.. so yes.. happy steve again.. kind of nervous that just getting a chance to chat with her makes that big of an impression on my mood but.. oh well.. all in all.. it was a good shopping trip.. ended up visiting with another friend where she worked for awhile.. and found out some cool stuff was on sale so bought a dragon wallpiece/mantel kind of thinger with candles and mirrors and stuff for cheap.. and i think it'll look nice on my wall as they're still too bare..