flyonwall

sick and tired of being confused 99% of the time.. the other 1% i think i finally have things figured out (only to be wrong. . .)

see.. girl from last post (and last week.. i've been neglectful apparently.. or.. rather.. boring.. when you do nothing all week including not sleeping.. not much to post about. . .)

so.. girl from last week.. mentioned to me a few days ago she thinks she will be breaking up with her current boyfriend and has been friendly in our email conversations (while i'm at work on breaks and her on breaks at school)

and then tonight they were both out and quite friendly with each other.. and she seemed quite friendly with me to at the end of the night when she was going home.. i don't know.. this was kind of a waste of writing as it hasn't helped me figure anything out but.. just.. blah..

slowly getting out of debt.. i do believe that i may keep my goal/deadline of paying off credit card by the end of october.. one thing that hurt that was the fact i didn't get a bonus at work last month.. being sick/in a pissed off mood for 2 weeks.. i was bound to get hit on a couple monitorings.. and i was.. so.. it wasn't exactly a surprise.. still a disappointment though.. but.. all in all.. i could technically pay off the entire balance right now and try and live cheaply until my next paycheck but.. i'd really rather not do that.. either way.. without a bonus.. i shall finally have cut one source of debt out by mid november.. and that's a really big deal since it only leaves my line of credit instead of splitting payments between the two..

yes.. this was a boring lame ass post but i'm tired and my legs hurt and i'm confused and getting emotionally drained again.. so i'm off to bed with winnona ryder, gary oldman and keanu reeves.. (it may be obvious but gold star if you know what movie i'm watching)