Saturday Mar 19, 2005

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friday was a very up and down day.. i was hired at the call center i interviewed at.. had a really great night dj-ing.. and then found some not nice news but.. i'm just going to keep my fingers crossed..

the downside of getting the job right away is i need to find an apartment.. by next monday..

*sets panic mode to 10*

Thursday Mar 17, 2005

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well.. i think i'm going apartment hunting tomorrow.. i was coerced into going out for st patrick's day and as i'll be in london all day tomorrow with nothing concrete planned to do until tomorrow night.. i might as well make use of my time..

Tuesday Mar 15, 2005

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nothing makes a blah day at work better than realizing you have the next day off..

now i'm off to make things and try and think about stuff..

if that was any more vague.. i don't think it could even be considered a sentence..
paintedbat:
lol well umm good luck??

And dude Spongebob will not kill you

Monday Mar 14, 2005

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as always it seems.. in times of trouble.. i'm sticking my head in the metaphorical sand..

this sand seems an awful lot like needles and thread though.. so.. hopefully i at least can get a decent outfit out of this... one of my favourite pairs of pants came out of some horrendous news back in the summer so here's hoping..
paintedbat:
wow well good luck...I think
anonym:
I'd help, but I'm not quite sure what's going on. Confused. I'm tired therefore slow.

Sunday Mar 13, 2005

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i'm really tired of feeling like a stranger.. i suddenly don't know who this person is.. and i don't know how to get back where i belong
paintedbat:
oh no! I wish I could help you out!

Saturday Mar 12, 2005

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what a day.. and what a night.. some very good.. some not so good.. almost all quite stressful on some level or another..

i really wish i could afford to blow all kinds of money on alcohol tomorrow night.. but alas.. tis not to be..

Wednesday Mar 09, 2005

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trying really really hard not to start feeling sorry for myself and be sad..

plans for moving that were getting so close to fruition seem to be falling apart before my eyes.. and the biggest kick in the teeth.. i got a call back today for a job i applied for for when i move.. so now my answer of moving soon is a "i...
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paintedbat:
shit I hope things start to look up. frown

Monday Mar 07, 2005

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i felt a need to update but i have nothing worth saying..

thought fragments keep flitting through my head but they're all too fleeting to try and express anything of substance...

so instead.. a quote from a tv show i watched tonight..

"A traveller reaches a large swamp and stops his horse. He sits, looking at the swamp.. trying to decide if he should go...
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Sunday Mar 06, 2005

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were i to classify today as a date.. i would say failure.. even for a first date..

however.. if i were refer to today as simply 2 people meeting and being social and such on a mostly 1 on 1 basis.. it would be passable.. somewhat..

either way.. if i had gotten more than 10 hours of sleep in the last 2 nights.. i'm sure...
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Tuesday Mar 01, 2005

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i wrote this saturday night/sunday morning in my lj.. i wanted to post it here as well..

and.. tonight.. i went out to dissent.. now.. some may find that callous.. the day you bury a relative you still go out clubbing.. but.. see.. i realized why i was there and i had to be there tonight especially..


i dance to forget... to forget loneliness.. to...
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anonym:
I wanted just plain Rowan because it sounded like an actual name, instead of a nick. It felt more comfortable, and less fake to me. I know. I'm weird. Plus someone else has it already. Thanks, though.
murder_tramp:
Very well said.

And, thank you!

kiss ~Trampy

Sunday Feb 27, 2005

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why is it the ones we want.. never want us. . .
and the ones that want us.. we'll never want?

poetic justice? cruel fate?


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examples.. there are a few people i have a crush on that seem to have zero interest in me and/or are already involved in a relationship..

or the fact i seemed to ruin a guy's night when he asked...
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anonym:
That's the way love, lust and like works, I'm afraid. It always seems to me that when you want someone, no one you'd want is around to be there with you. On the other hand, when you have no interest in a relationship whatsoever, of any kind, the masses all seem to want a piece of you. It's a sad and cruel thing, but most things in reality are that way.

Friday Feb 25, 2005

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insincerity needs to be a crime.
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anonym:
I hate that at funerals. When my dad died, people kept on asking me "Are you ok?" or saying "I'm sorry." I think the best thing someone could have done is to come up to me, and say something nice about my father instead of the usual cliches. I try to do that for others at funerals. It seems a lot more compassionate and sincere.

Hey, do you have MSN?

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heathavoid:
*hugs* sorry to hear about your grandfather. As you know, I can empathize with you totally.


Insincerity is terrible... don't let the insincere people bring you down though.
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