flygirl

Is spring here yet? This has been the longest winter in my memory. There is a chill to everything. I am craving sunshine. I was half thinking about going tanning just to feel warm. Its too bad because I like Columbus but if this is how it is I am not sure I would be happy here long term. I have no family and few if any "real" friends. So there is nothing keeping here after I am done with school. I swear I didnt come here for Chad but now that I know I will never be with him it seems so much easier to say this isnt right for me I am ready to go. I wonder if somewhere in my twisted pshche I thought if I were near him things might work out between us. Who's to say. The mind when mixed with emotion can sometimes play tricks on you. I hate to say I made a mistake by comming here because I did go back to school and in 7 months I will be a licensed Masage Therapist. I wouldnt have done that had I stayed in TN. I can say I made many mistakes by placing hope and love in a worthless cause. Maybe this was what I needed to finally put an end to the love I have had for toooooo many years for a guy who wasnt worthy.