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These are the two biggest crushes I have going on at the moment. Both are pretty much just fantasy. Gez....the second guy I could have but he lives in Bath England. Richard Ashcroft, the first guy, I could totally have my way with for a weekend...if he knew my talents or for that matter if he knew me at all! It is my secret fantasy to meet him some night after a show in the green room.....our eyes will meet from across the crowded room and there will be an instant spark of attraction and he will walk up and ask me if I want to go on the bus and have a drink where its quieter. And of course I say yes and of course I will end up giving him the hottest head hes ever had and of course we go back to his hotel and have insane freaky physical and hard core rocking sex all night long. It could hapen...you never know....Ive fucked more famous rockers! Damn I must be feeling slutty. After all I have this guy that I love but I have been seriously thinking about other men the last few days. I think I just need some strange. I havent felt passionate with Chad since almost 2 weeks now. At least not the kind of passionate that keeps me from thinking about other men and random women. hmmmmm. what to do?????????

Heres a song written by my current lust.. his talent is half the reason I want to fuck him.


One day maybe we will dance again
Under fiery skies
One day maybe you will love again
Love that never dies

One day maybe you will see the land
Touch skin with sand
You've been swimming in the lonely sea
With no company

Oh, don't you want to find?
Can't you hear this beauty in life?
The roads, the highs, breaking up your life
Can't you hear this beauty in life?

One day maybe you will cry again
Just like a child
You've gotta tie yourself to the mast my friend
And the storm will end

Oh, don't you want to find?
Can't you hear this beauty in life?
The times, the highs, breaking up your mind
Can't you hear this beauty in life?

Oh, you're too afraid to touch
Too afraid you'll like it too much
The roads, the times, breaking up your mind
Can't you hear this beauty in life?

One day maybe I will dance again
One day maybe I will love again
One day maybe we will dance again
You know you've gotta
Tie yourself to the mast my friend
And the storm will end
One day maybe you will love again
You've gotta tie yourself to the mast my friend
And the storm will end

One day maybe we will dance again
Under fiery skies
One day maybe you will love again
Love that never dies

One day maybe you will see the land
Touch skin with sand
You've been swimming in the lonely sea
With no company

Oh, don't you want to find?
Can't you hear this beauty in life?
The roads, the highs, breaking up your life
Can't you hear this beauty in life?

One day maybe you will cry again
Just like a child
You've gotta tie yourself to the mast my friend
And the storm will end

Oh, don't you want to find?
Can't you hear this beauty in life?
The times, the highs, breaking up your mind
Can't you hear this beauty in life?

Oh, you're too afraid to touch
Too afraid you'll like it too much
The roads, the times, breaking up your mind
Can't you hear this beauty in life?

One day maybe I will dance again
One day maybe I will love again
One day maybe we will dance again
You know you've gotta
Tie yourself to the mast my friend
And the storm will end
One day maybe you will love again
You've gotta tie yourself to the mast my friend
And the storm will end