I am swiftly approaching 30!!! Wow where has my life gone???? I have spent the better part of a weeek now in my minds eye replaying my life up till now!
I haqve had my many moments some much more memorable than others! I have made few close friends, have lost loved ones, have made new loved ones.....I am a mother now, wich really is life changing!
I have also come to realise that there is much I had hoped to have done by now, and there is this person in my minds eye that I thought I would be, that I am not.....and I am seemingly unhappy about all of this overthinking! What do I do?? Do I rush out madly trying to change to this person that I had always thought I was going to be all glittery and spectacular??? Or to I instead sit back and think some more about the person that I am and just accept that maybe this is me and I wouldn't be ME anymore if I seek out to change myself???
Or am I always me just improving??? Is it selfish to focus more on one's self .....for the last 2 years since having my babies I often feel guilty trying to do things that are solely for me and myself and not for the gain of my kiddos or my family!!! And I dunno if people really do read these blogs...but if so what is so unfirendlt about me that I am struggling even to make friends on here??
I haqve had my many moments some much more memorable than others! I have made few close friends, have lost loved ones, have made new loved ones.....I am a mother now, wich really is life changing!
I have also come to realise that there is much I had hoped to have done by now, and there is this person in my minds eye that I thought I would be, that I am not.....and I am seemingly unhappy about all of this overthinking! What do I do?? Do I rush out madly trying to change to this person that I had always thought I was going to be all glittery and spectacular??? Or to I instead sit back and think some more about the person that I am and just accept that maybe this is me and I wouldn't be ME anymore if I seek out to change myself???
Or am I always me just improving??? Is it selfish to focus more on one's self .....for the last 2 years since having my babies I often feel guilty trying to do things that are solely for me and myself and not for the gain of my kiddos or my family!!! And I dunno if people really do read these blogs...but if so what is so unfirendlt about me that I am struggling even to make friends on here??