fluffy17

Lately, I've been hit by this huge wave of self-doubt. And insomnia. I've slept about 6 hours in 2 days. Maybe the whole "Dude, you got laid off" hammer is starting to drop on my head. I act like I'm on vacation, but the fact is I'm unemployed. To much self-worth tied up in my job. Not enough tried up in the fact that I'm a cool, intelligent, kind person.... And maybe not as modest as I should be

Todays goal: No Smoking, No Caffeine, get out of the house. Make at least one attempt to really talk to someone new (not at a bar). Climb. Start my coding project. Don't drink.
Dream that one day, hot monkey sex makes that list
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Kool Keith. He's so perverse. And the beats are great Pornocore

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Feeling better today. Haven't smoked yet. gonna go climb soon. Might hit service at zen center, might not. Maybe I'll just sleep...
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Still no smoking. Yay. And I just bouldered for a little while at the gym. Really tired, can hardly breath, but generally ok. I'm feeling much better, much less panicy than yesterday....

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sg needs a better i-face to edit journals....

sick, tired. Eating too much diner food (mmmm, burgers) Many women to date, but not right now...

Hoping do go to Yosemite tu-th.

blah. Night gang