Just a little message for the friends I have here.....,
Most of the friends I have on here will already know by now, that I have my fair share of problems, but I'm feeling especially vulnerable right now, for some reason.
I can't quite put my finger on exactly why I'm feeling this bad, at this specific time, and that's probably why I'm more worried about my bad thoughts than usual. If I knew why I am feeling like this, I am intelligent enough to be able to rationalise my emotions and deal with them/it. The fact that I can't understand why I am feeling this extreme feeling of depression, without knowing the reason behind it, makes it uncomfortably difficult to explain to myself, let alone to other people.
Hopefully, I will either figure out what is going on to make me feel like this, have an epiphany, or just have something happen that changes my mood but, if not, I just wanted to let the wonderful friends I've made here know why I might not be active here for a little while.
I'm going to try not to be defeatist, but I don't like myself when I feel like this, so it's better for me to not be on any social media when I feel this way, as I don't like myself and usually say stupid things or things that I later regret, so if you don't see or hear from me for a little while..., this is why.
Take good care of yourselves and each other and I will hope to get in touch with you soon šā¤ Xx
