it is quite amazing how quick your brain can compute a scenario, most of the time without your consciousness knowing it. i think i may have sucessfully thought my way out of my current crush situation. but will it end up following through the way my brain currently thinks it will?
i was completely high as a kite friday, early evening. she was back in town, we talked on the phone, i mentioned parties that could be had, she offered to go.
party one: swanky benefit at local design studio.
an awesome party, a little pricey to get in, but it's for a good cause, and 2 free drinks! i surprisingly knew a hand full of people, and good people too. good people that i knew well, and represented me well in front of a crush. "wow, i didn't even plan that!" i won a silent auction, of very interesting artwork. awesome time... even hooked her up with a contact of a field she is interested in!
party two: my friend's house for a small get-together.
even though it was already 10 by now, we were the first ones there. shortly after we arrived, so did my other friends. was a fun time. i ended up taking many photos, some of her too... wow is she a dream. my friend took this photo below: everyone was in the living room except for us in the kitchen reading a book on how to regain your circumcision and how it is such a terrible thing (notice: sitting close, bodies touching most of the time):
then i started to get tired, so we went back to my place. it was very fun...looked at really old photos of us from college, pics from my halloween party. this is prolly my fault... was i suppose to put some "moves" on her at this point? it was around 4am that she said she wanted to go home, so i drove her home. no ackwardness when she left the car, we said goodbye and she walked inside.
so, this, my brain has translated to... there is nothing there, and i'm completely imagining everything. girls are tough cookies to break. does she normally flirt with people? where is her "boyfriend" when we hang out late at night? why does she have to be so perfect to me? why can't i know what to do, and not be so shy? for fucks sake!
in lighter news...
i got a couch yesterday, finally.
i'm applying to grad school.
i hung my white board tonight.
i've decided to start exercising, cuz i feel fat.
i've decided to start eating better too, for same reason above.
any advice?
i was completely high as a kite friday, early evening. she was back in town, we talked on the phone, i mentioned parties that could be had, she offered to go.
party one: swanky benefit at local design studio.
an awesome party, a little pricey to get in, but it's for a good cause, and 2 free drinks! i surprisingly knew a hand full of people, and good people too. good people that i knew well, and represented me well in front of a crush. "wow, i didn't even plan that!" i won a silent auction, of very interesting artwork. awesome time... even hooked her up with a contact of a field she is interested in!
party two: my friend's house for a small get-together.
even though it was already 10 by now, we were the first ones there. shortly after we arrived, so did my other friends. was a fun time. i ended up taking many photos, some of her too... wow is she a dream. my friend took this photo below: everyone was in the living room except for us in the kitchen reading a book on how to regain your circumcision and how it is such a terrible thing (notice: sitting close, bodies touching most of the time):
then i started to get tired, so we went back to my place. it was very fun...looked at really old photos of us from college, pics from my halloween party. this is prolly my fault... was i suppose to put some "moves" on her at this point? it was around 4am that she said she wanted to go home, so i drove her home. no ackwardness when she left the car, we said goodbye and she walked inside.
so, this, my brain has translated to... there is nothing there, and i'm completely imagining everything. girls are tough cookies to break. does she normally flirt with people? where is her "boyfriend" when we hang out late at night? why does she have to be so perfect to me? why can't i know what to do, and not be so shy? for fucks sake!
in lighter news...
i got a couch yesterday, finally.
i'm applying to grad school.
i hung my white board tonight.
i've decided to start exercising, cuz i feel fat.
i've decided to start eating better too, for same reason above.
any advice?
i mainly just take pix of my friends
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