flipmuhpina

So thanks to everyone for their input

Makes me feel I deserve more sometimes. Life has always forgetten about me at times, and I feel it has really deprived me of love for the most part.

As for my BF I thought about bringing it up one more time. I will not let him know why I am asking. Its like a test, if he passes and answers the questions truthfully or to my standards I will stay, if not I guess I will be saving money to apartment hunt. "Thats the way love goes" - Janet Jackson.

I am hoping that the call his EX made was just a silly lil teen prank she has when all her friends are around. I hope this hasnt really been going on for too long. Its funny coz I am just starting work, and its so fishy! Anyways, when things dont go the way you would like it too, people always hope that its not true... denial. I dont want to go through all of this.

I have switched homes probably more than I have switched underwears. Ehem which is everyday! I am a runaway, and I guess that will never change. I feel sometimes no one will ever love me... someone brought it up in my comments... Am I looking for that someone who will be my everything? Someone who will be to my standards... all I want is to be respected, loved, and grow old with. If I can trade that for a million dollars, I will do it in a heart beat. Coz I am a hopeless romantic. Sad... and so pathetic... its make me .

And just to make it clear. I never found ou t if he did or didnt sleep with his EX. But either way... you dont have to have sex to cheat... its all the feelings, emotions, and vibe mixed in. As long as you are sneaking around you are cheating. If it was this case, I wish I could have called all my exes... ugh... and made him feel as bad as I do.

I am a sick piece of shit. I feel I am jumping to conclusions, but my feeling that first time did not serve me wrong. I am not feeling those assumptions again, its just that phone call that scared me. Before that, everything was dandy like candy. Now its down the drain like poop!

I need help.

I need to runaway, and this time keep running.

Maybe I should just leave it all behind without a question whether he is or not... this way my life is refreshed. Wouldnt it be nice to have one of those REFRESH buttons in life? It would be nice to have all of those functions on the toolbar! Ha ha ha ha...

Well enough of my complaining and pity wanting. Tell me about your day, or comment about this topic some more since it was a popular one.