flimshaw

i fucking hate christmas. i hate christmas carrols. i hate people who love christmas. i'm bored.

i just watched requiem for a dream. i need to get the upper hand on my disintigration.

a girl i don't like but who i could easily fuck who has a kid with an accquaintence i consider a friend keeps emailing me wanting to hook up. i already have too many compounding problems to take on any more. i NEED to get laid though.

anybody want to start a band?

i hate christians so much. they think they own the world. i have to live here too.

who would have thought. little old so and so from high school. on the comp-uter nekkid. this is so strange. i really wanted to hook up and now here she is with her clothes off. karma? no. god loves me? fuck no. coincidence. surely. strange how time can flip turn shit upside-down. moral dillemma ahoy!

torn between the dream and reality. you can only draw so much inspiration of how to live from your favorite movies. i can feel the failure creeping up on me. why do people feel they have to give encouragement? what do i want with that? goddamn, i gotta make more of an effort to get out of this fucking room.

is anybody actually going to see this? i feel like a tree falling in the woods. o...k. ... oh shit road to perdition is on