flimshaw

my brovah stopped in town last night. he lives in arizona so i get to see him never. he is on his way to brooklynn with his gf to see her family. they were pulled over in western kansas for no reason. not speeding, nothing. alice thought is was cause she's not white and was driving a car with arizona rental tags. i guess they asked if there was anything illegal in the car and then searched, pulling out the lining in the trunk and shit. that's when they found my brother's gun. (my brother is weird about guns. he's always had them. personally, i can't stand the fucking things and wouldn't want one in my house.) well, okay, this is when the patrol freaks out and searches everything. so then they were let go and decided to drop the gun off here. dumbass. they only stayed for a few minutes since they were going to stop here to visit on their way back. but they were here long enough for alice to tell me and my mom that she'll be taking a job in alaska next spring. she even joked with my mom "i'm taking your son away from you." NO SHIT! man, i'm pissed. i hardly ever get so see him as it is, i'm sure much less once he moves to a "town" of about 100 people with no electricity or running water. i'm trying not to be man at alice but goddammit. my mom really didn't seem to care and later told me she thought peter would like it. which is true, but he's only ever gotten to see my daughter twice. my dad's been dead for 5 years now, the baby's mama doesn't know her dad, basicly my daughter doesn't have much of a male, patriarchial figure besides me.

today at work i had to go downtown to the warehouse to pick up some tires. when i was about half way there traffic slowed to a stop and was routed up over an overpass. there were highway patrol everywhere. i got up on top of the overpass and looked down to see what was happening and there were blood and guts all over the road. they had a tarp covering the body but it wasn't big enough. i guess at 6:30 this morning some 84 year old woman jumped off the bridge into traffic. i tried to find a link but nothing's up yet. i had a uneasy feeling most of the day. before i knew what happened i was wondering what could have happened. i'd originally thought a construction worker had fallen off of the bridge, which was closed for construction. then i started to wonder if it was a suicide. man, it was just plain fucked up.

kid's sick. still. she's got pmnemonia. she had it the winter before last. fever, coughing. it sucks.