I am sitting here in front of the computer, trying to psych myself up to start working on an essay for English. Here is the topic: With detailed attention to a particular passage or passeges, analyse the style of Swift's A Modest Proposal. How does it express the persona's character and personal history? How does it express Swift's ironic argument?
I find myself posing the same question to myself again and again.... what the fuck am I doing in school for exactly? Ah suck it up, get it done.
I find myself posing the same question to myself again and again.... what the fuck am I doing in school for exactly? Ah suck it up, get it done.

apathy_activist:
... and what can be found in the use of the first voice is an apparent refuting of the events that had transpired. While the intention of the author is actually to direct the reader into understanding that as the main actor in those events, he actually fully supported them, and his protests where actually trying to convince himself. It is the guilt and regret that has left him to attempt to make ammends for something that is utterly irredeemable.