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Got a text message from the girl I was seeing, for the very brief, very awkward time that I was seeing her...a week after I broke it off with her.

In short, she said, that although she still wants to be friends with me, she was incredibly hurt by what I had said, (and I'll actually repeat verbatim what I said, because...it is rare that I'm as nice to someone as I was being to her) and that I ended things prematurely, that I didn't give "us" enough time to properly make a judgment on it.

What I had said was, "I honestly feel that things are incredibly awkward between us, and that we were more comfortable being just friends. We haven't said, or done anything that we would be embarrassed later on about, to not at least go back to being friends. What do you think we should do?"

This is where she said, "I don't know. I have no opinion on the matter."

That is where I nearly slapped her. You can't ask someone out, go out with them, and not have an opinion on whether or not you want to still see them. You either still find them interesting, or you don't want to see them again. You don't not either of those choices. (yeah I am aware of the double-negative on that)

Instead of slapping her I stuttered for a second and then said, "Ok. Well we'll vote on it. I vote we go back to being friends, you abstain, unless you want to vote now." and she said "whatever is fine." So we went back to being friends, had some diner food, and I dropped her back off at her house.

Seriously...two dates with her basically...and I scored...a hug. What...the...fuck? and it was an awkward hug...and I was getting hugs when we were just friends.

I can tell you what I didn't do...I didn't fuck the girl that I DO like, because I had the title of "boyfriend" over my head, even when she spent the night at my house. (and yeah I could've thrown THAT into the other girl's face but apparently I'm too fucking classy for that)

And now I think things with the girl that I do like have gotten slightly awkward. Though I know she doesn't want a relationship with ANNNNNNYONE...due to the fact that she just got out of one that lasted the better part of a decade.

So yeah, that text message actually made things even more awkward to be going back to being friends with her...so...good job lil miss awkwardsauce.

Past that...I've been learning a freaking ton at school, trying not to flip out on my classmates because I'm kinda the only one that pays attention, does the work, or tries to understand the assignments (until recently, the one hardcore pot-head started putting his noes into the books and is actually doing going at a faster pace than me with electrical), we're thinking about adopting a new dog...and I'm trying not to pass the frak out from lack of sleep. Had to get up at 3:30am today to make it to the black friday sale at Kohl's. Had to get a food processor for my mom. I was not the first person there. I had to park across the damn parking lot...