flawlesimpurity

I just had the most amazing girl sex! Tongues and clits have such an amazing sybiosis!

I threw a baby shower for my cousin yesterday. God works in mysterious ways bringing a new baby to our family right now. See my Grandmother is dying. For no apparent reason really besides she's lost the will to live. She's a hypochondriac and has complained about pain for years. The doctor has pushed pills to her so much that it has pushed her over the edge. She's slowly slipped away from us mentally. Now she refuses to eat. She spits it up if she's forced to eat. She pulls the IV's out carrying nutrients to her. Now her body is slowly shutting down. Since she has signed a do not resuscitate paper this means they cannot keep her alive with machines and tubes. So now the doctors have said they cannot do anything else for her and a hospice has taken over to keep her comfortable.

I haven't known really how to react to everything. I'm known for keeping my worries inside which eventually causes depression for me. So my journal is actually a good way to get some of this out. I haven't been able to cry. I have mixed emotions, especially since besides all this I've been really happy lately.

One day at a time!