She said to me last night, "You make my heart beat so fast it suffocates me!" It made me melt! Too fucking cute!
Earlier in the night it wasn't too cute though. At work we kinda got in our first spat. I was mad at her. She makes me feel shitty sometimes when I pay her a complement and she tells me I'm wrong or I tell her how much I'm into her and she says I'm lying. We're planning on going to Dinah Shore this year and she joked around about us getting separate rooms. Then tonight she bragged about all the invitations she has to go out on New Years Eve, one being a lesbian party where her friends want to set her up.
For the most part I'm confident in her attraction towards me but it still makes me feel shitty. I kinda think she just does this so she can hear me tell her she's wrong. She does say she's joking when she does this. Maybe she does this because of her own insecurities. Either way I can't see how she can't tell how totally hers I am. She consumes me. But then the night ended perfect with that comment!
On another note,
My New Years Eve is going to suck big Donkey Ass! I'm working this thing called Praise at Knott's. It's basically this huge New Years Party for a bunch of bible thumpers. So I'll be running lights for a bunch of Christian rock bands. Yay me! Actually it's quite entertaining because the bands are total hardcore heavy metal and punk. Their voices sound like the devil screaming, they have colored hair, dreads and mohawks and are covered in tats. Most of them are actually quite cute. But they are singing about GOD for christs sake! Literally!!!!
So, I'll flick the lights on because I don't really give a damn too much to play with them. I'll sit my little ass down and hide behind the board while I crochet a scarf and pout. I'm going to be in the worst mood and super sad that I can't bring in the new year with her. I'll be missing her tremendously and wishing the whole time I had her soft lips to kiss at the stoke of midnight. It sucks to be me sometimes.
::pout:: Happy Fucking New Year!
Earlier in the night it wasn't too cute though. At work we kinda got in our first spat. I was mad at her. She makes me feel shitty sometimes when I pay her a complement and she tells me I'm wrong or I tell her how much I'm into her and she says I'm lying. We're planning on going to Dinah Shore this year and she joked around about us getting separate rooms. Then tonight she bragged about all the invitations she has to go out on New Years Eve, one being a lesbian party where her friends want to set her up.
For the most part I'm confident in her attraction towards me but it still makes me feel shitty. I kinda think she just does this so she can hear me tell her she's wrong. She does say she's joking when she does this. Maybe she does this because of her own insecurities. Either way I can't see how she can't tell how totally hers I am. She consumes me. But then the night ended perfect with that comment!
On another note,
My New Years Eve is going to suck big Donkey Ass! I'm working this thing called Praise at Knott's. It's basically this huge New Years Party for a bunch of bible thumpers. So I'll be running lights for a bunch of Christian rock bands. Yay me! Actually it's quite entertaining because the bands are total hardcore heavy metal and punk. Their voices sound like the devil screaming, they have colored hair, dreads and mohawks and are covered in tats. Most of them are actually quite cute. But they are singing about GOD for christs sake! Literally!!!!
So, I'll flick the lights on because I don't really give a damn too much to play with them. I'll sit my little ass down and hide behind the board while I crochet a scarf and pout. I'm going to be in the worst mood and super sad that I can't bring in the new year with her. I'll be missing her tremendously and wishing the whole time I had her soft lips to kiss at the stoke of midnight. It sucks to be me sometimes.
::pout:: Happy Fucking New Year!
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I used to live in So Cal.... Coronado, to be exact.... Loved it, can't wait to go back - maybe next November... We'll see.... I think Monterey is next - for a while.
Think you'll be well by then?
What can you do??
I never understood Christian bands.
I liked your Grinch comment.
Good stuff.