Hey guys,
I'm not sure if it's the right place to talk about it, but I have something that I want to talk to you. As you see I'm not really active on the site recently. I feel a little bit sad, probably winter blues. But there's something else.. My grand-mother is really sick. She has a lung cancer.. Today, almost every grand-parents have a cancer, even adults and even (worse) kids. But, she's now in hospital and I don't think she got alot of time.
The point of, it's that I never really live death in my life. I don't know what I feel about it actually. I lost another grand-mother when I was like 7 or 8 years old. I don't remember alot about it, I don't even know if, at this time, I was understanding what was that means...
I got a fish when I was like 12 years old and he die, but seriously, a fish... who really cares about a fish? So I never really live a bereavement. I don't know how does it feel or how to react. I don't remember how I felt with my other grand-mother, I don't even know if I actually mourn.
So I don't know how to react with my mother (it's actually her mother that is at the hospital). I don't know what to tell. I can't even imagine losing her so, I guess she feel the same.
I think I need some advice, or something. I'm scare to lose her but I told myself that she could be in a better place. It's tough to see people we love in pain...
Anyway, I have the feeling that I need to share it with you. That, at some points, someone can have the answers that I'm looking for.
-Flareh
