flamesshowing

Well so much for the weekly blogs I promised myself I'd write, but what do I do when I read other peoples blogs; so clever, so articulate. I can only dream of expressing myself with such clarity, charm and wit. How lame is it to say I'm so fucking pissed off right now at that fuck, I could just rip off his fucking head!!! "I love the French language, especially to curse in, it's like wiping your ass with silk." If only I could speak French. All I can say is that I just want to go home; I'm so over all of this bullshit and having all of the big wigs tell me what a great job I'm doing when in fact I'm not doing a dam thing down here, I'm not making any kind of difference to anyone, if only they would let me do the job I have trained so hard for, sacrificed for, in fact what I give up my youth for. Yes I just want to go home; away from all of these 3rd world beggars. I want to go home and hug my son and daughter and never let them go. I want to go home and run into burning buildings again, wrestle with dumb shits that let themselves slip into diabetic fits. I want to go home were I make a positive difference to all that I come into contact with, in point of fact my time is short now but not short enough.