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So I've decided I'm gonna change my favorites every so often (no offense to my old faves.....you still hold a very high place in my heart!!!)

My voice is still gone...maybe SARS is still a possibility...coughing, general muscle pain...but I feel quite together in my head...just not outwardly together (if you speak to me, don't expect any kind of coherent reply, or any reply at all!!!)

I'm sooo pigging out lately...timmy ho's today for a canadian maple doughnut....now pickles (only dill!) and cheese and really good roasted dell pepper stoned wheat thins...ummmmmm comfort food!

Nothing can go wrong,
Still avoiding calls though...everybody gets soooo mad at me for not calling. I seriously get anxiety attacks whenever the phone rings. I'm usually fine with people I don't know, but am terrified and retarded whenever I look at the call display and it's someone I know. I hate the phone (even more than people) and no one seems to understand that. I've hated it for years!

Sometimes its so hard to convince yourself that nothing is really that important, that if you screw up and don't get everything done by the day it's supposed to be, it doesn't matter.

Typing this just made me relax again.

I don't hate everyone or everything.

Just the people and things that piss me off.

Ahhhhh, sooo relaxed!