fixer

what a strange situation to be jealous of...one of the grls at the bar that flrt wth a lot has a boyfrend. she's always claiming to be a good girl, but a couple weeks ago she went home drunk with one of the regulars at the bar, who I think is an utter prick. she tries to pass it off to me as if nothing is going on, but tonight he was staying in the hotel and she snuck up to his room.

I can't figure out why it gets to me so much. she's too young for me, and I never had any real expectations of any hanky-panky, but I wouldn't turn her down either.

I'm not all all like this normally, so it's really making me wonder what's going on in my head!