hung out with an old time serious girlfriend from high school, welp, she hasn't changed much, welp, i have, and welp, looks like nothings changed.
kidding, it was a blast, hadn't seen her in like 3 years....since high school basically....despite our having lived like 600 miles apart (which, incidently, is why i hadn't seen her since we went our seperate ways).
its weird spending time with people you used to feel powerful emotions for and have powerful contact with, 'cause you feel, atleast i do, like, everything that was there is still there, it's just dead, but the presence of its corpse is haunting...
maybe i over read situations, or over read in to situations, but which ever it is i over read tension, and always do when this kind of shit goes down.
I don't want to fuck her anymore, I don't think she wants to fuck me anymore but there's a weird physical tension in the air, or there was, and it was weird, and I didn't like it.
it was like that tension when you see people you used to know but never really knew well and you have that little conversation
"so, how're you? are you still in school?" they say
"oh i'm fine, yeah, i'm at a university that's not good enough for me but would suit you just fine, and i'd like to leave but i'm stuck there 'cause i slacked in high school and it damned me like i never thought it would" you reply...
or whatever, anyways, it was that tension, that annoying "I don't know this person but I have to share with them my life as it has been for the past few years" but it was physical...which is weird.
fucking life is retarded 'cause nothing feels the same twice and it's impossible to stay prepared for shit (yeah, its improper, so what?).
it wasn't really that weird though...i'm still glad i saw her, "some are silver and the others gold" as they say, but there was weird tension.
kidding, it was a blast, hadn't seen her in like 3 years....since high school basically....despite our having lived like 600 miles apart (which, incidently, is why i hadn't seen her since we went our seperate ways).
its weird spending time with people you used to feel powerful emotions for and have powerful contact with, 'cause you feel, atleast i do, like, everything that was there is still there, it's just dead, but the presence of its corpse is haunting...
maybe i over read situations, or over read in to situations, but which ever it is i over read tension, and always do when this kind of shit goes down.
I don't want to fuck her anymore, I don't think she wants to fuck me anymore but there's a weird physical tension in the air, or there was, and it was weird, and I didn't like it.
it was like that tension when you see people you used to know but never really knew well and you have that little conversation
"so, how're you? are you still in school?" they say
"oh i'm fine, yeah, i'm at a university that's not good enough for me but would suit you just fine, and i'd like to leave but i'm stuck there 'cause i slacked in high school and it damned me like i never thought it would" you reply...
or whatever, anyways, it was that tension, that annoying "I don't know this person but I have to share with them my life as it has been for the past few years" but it was physical...which is weird.
fucking life is retarded 'cause nothing feels the same twice and it's impossible to stay prepared for shit (yeah, its improper, so what?).
it wasn't really that weird though...i'm still glad i saw her, "some are silver and the others gold" as they say, but there was weird tension.