fistfuck

a sleepless night... i woke up several times. i hate sleeping alone. my ex owes me tons of money for the kids... doesnt want to pay it.... the bills pile up and i feel like a bad mom. the new guy is still scare to take us on... so whats new? today is my birthday.... i am now 27. I havent been alone on my birthday... ever. so i sit in my apartment and wind up here on suicide girls... i should be getting ready for work... should. My kids were really sweet this morning... that helped. My oldest asked where **** was (the new guy) and i told her that he had to work... she said he didnt sleep with you? (she means it like sleep next to me... lol)... i said... no.... she asked if i was sad. The smartest 4 year old in the world....

i know most people dont like this guy.... youd be amazed at the range of my music taste... this song just came on my itunes....
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Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time and you know it
Don't you know
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know
It's not like I haven't tried over and over again
Stupid fights, wrong or right
Goodbye

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
Know I don't wanna
But I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmerciful
It took me down
Too little and too late
See now I know your kind
You fake it easy just to please me
Don't you know
It's not like we haven't tried over and over again
Sleepless nights, wrong or right
Goodbye

I gotta let you go
It's you
There's nothing I can do