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Well i thought id introduce myself. Hi. I am a junior at The University of the Incarnate Word majoring in Computer Graphic Arts with a minor in Photography. I just applied to be a suicide girl and had my first set rejected but i will prevail! I will probably take another set sometime soon. As i know you all are just so anxious to see me naked!!! right? lol. Anyway enough of that.

Today i was driving home from school listening to my ipod as usual and the song Nothingman by Pearl Jam came on. I absolutely adore this song and i distinctly remember putting it on my itunes but i havent heard it in years. Its such a lovely song that brings up so many memories and experiences. In the very first verse he says, "Some words when spoken...cant be taken back..." and i started to think about just how true this is, and just how many times ive said something that i wished so hard that i could take back. Ive had to come to grips with the fact that im quick to be sarcastic and always at the wrong times my words will sting and cause more pain that i ever desired. Why cant i ever say what i mean without dousing my words with empty worthless crude banter that i seem to always always litter my speech in.

This probably seems a bit off the wall... seeing as you dont know me and my background... but really its just me having a thought and bouncing it off the wall. The wall ofcourse being.... you.