Well ... some people can only take so much stress. Ive had a lot of stress I havent spoken of from work. Just kind of dealt with. Or so I thought. Well, today I blew up. I couldnt take it anymore. No more bullshit from work, no more bullshit from home. I collapsed today. I am still trying to get up from the ground. I feel like I dont really "belong" here anymore. Like I have spent my time here and served my purpose. And now I live without a purpose.
Without a purpose .... have you ever felt like you didnt have a purpose? Im sure many have. Ive always felt like I have 1 drive mechanism. And its to GO. I just dont feel like Im going anywhere here. Im stationary, just growing more and more. no progress. Im falling behind in life. I shouldnt be.
What the fuck am I doing wrong? Seriously. I make a truck and insurance payment plus rent and utilities, Thats like 2000 a month. I make easily over 3 ... where is the rest going ? I know I dont spend 1600 on extra shit. What the fuck am I doing ?
I think this every month. Every day.
It eats me apart.
Without a purpose .... have you ever felt like you didnt have a purpose? Im sure many have. Ive always felt like I have 1 drive mechanism. And its to GO. I just dont feel like Im going anywhere here. Im stationary, just growing more and more. no progress. Im falling behind in life. I shouldnt be.
What the fuck am I doing wrong? Seriously. I make a truck and insurance payment plus rent and utilities, Thats like 2000 a month. I make easily over 3 ... where is the rest going ? I know I dont spend 1600 on extra shit. What the fuck am I doing ?
I think this every month. Every day.
It eats me apart.
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