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Im at a loss of words and feelings. this is one of the times where i wish i knew what to write but cant find the right words. i guess maybe im not really the admirable type in a civilian population. i am at the end of trying and i will soon just start gliding through this life. what else can i do. i love someone but i just dont know if i will be there for her like she needs. its almost time. real friends know me.all to well. to bad all my closest friends are already dead. down to 2 left. wow, what an epic life i have lived.