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Friday Aug 03, 2012

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I can't believe it's August 3rd already. Where has this year gone? Time is going far too quickly for my liking.
I'm feeling uncharacteristically nostalgic, so here's a blog of sharing and looking back through some of my time.

As many of you know, I 'm a lil bit of a hair and beauty junkie. Partly through my profession, partly through girly curiosity. Though I had forgotten, just how many colours I've had my hair. I've yet to do blue or green, but there's still time smile


I used to party HARD. From the age of about 14 I was all about getting drunk, having fun and partying hard. (And dressing up as a leopard...)





I guess I only really stopped going out so much when I found out I was pregnant. I actually still managed to party, just sober.
I also wish I had more photos of when I was pregnant. I'm never doing it again, so seems a shame not to have more photographs of that time. Anyway.




Then I had a mini-me and everything changed. Most for the better. I love that boy to death.
Here he is, all newborn cute to the banana-welding crazy monkey he is now. 18 months and keeping me more on my toes every day.





I did my first ever nude photos in Feb this year with Lavezzaro, and only 6 months later, I feel at least a little more confident in front of a camera and with my own body. From my first SG set to my most recent, I notice a big difference to how much more at ease I was. I'm especially proud of this, as my body changed so dramatically with and after pregnancy. Women rock and our bodies are pretty incredible with what they can cope with and go through.



I've changed a lot, especially in the last few years. I used to be incredibly selfish, and outgoing and into everything and a pain in the ass, and a bit of a bitch.
Just becoming older has matured me and calmed me a lot. I know my limits. I know when to walk away. I express myself better. I no longer need guys to tell me I'm hot to feel good about myself. I can talk a little less awkwardly. I'm slightly less shy with new people. I have higher hopes and more ambition.
This is all good.
I still love partying and dancing, and having a good night out, especially with my girls. But I appreciate more, and want more.
I can sit in the bath with a good book, and just enjoy my own company and just BE.

I guess you could say I'm at ease. There's a lot going on in my life right now that's a mess and that's really negative. But it will get sorted eventually. And writing this down, and seeing photos of how different things are, it makes me pretty pleased and inwardly happy.

Hope you enjoyed the big share, it doesn't happen often!
Lots of love.
Fische <3
VIEW 25 of 73 COMMENTS
dimples:
ahhh it is! & thank you for the love kiss
Aug 7, 2012
hellfart:
It's like life has got a fast-forward-button... and someone pushes it without you noticing... and suddenly... it's indeed already august! eeek

Soon it'll be newyears eve, and we'll drink champagne and eat pesto-marinated-mushrooms on the midwinter BBQ. And yes, I'll be there to party with you, because I'm in control of..
...

...

THE BUTTON!

biggrin
Aug 8, 2012

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