Possibility Dream
There was a man, and a woman. The woman was blonde, and the man was dark haired. I first saw them on the news. My friends and I were sitting in a restaurant, and we saw them at a table. Then we all went with them to a place through a wooden door, underground. We stayed there. Somehow the man put his seed in me, and I found that it was growing into a baby. Another man, there was an ominous feeling around both men, also put seed in me that was growing into a baby. I carried two babies in my womb. Both men wanted me. They needed the seeds grown to fruition. I liked both men, but I wasn't sure about the babies. The first man, after seeing me a couple times, knew that there was other seed in my womb. The second man still did not know. My friends were there sometimes, and everytime they were they played a game of break-out of the earth. They would devise shifty ideas of breaking out, even though they were not captive except that the men knew that I might leave with them if they got out. The men wanted to see their seeds come to fruition. If a friend was not with me though, she could leave freely. The woman who was with the first man, she disappeared into the background to do her own thing and let the man take control.
I relate the two men to the two new plans I've made - to get a job, and to go to beauty school. I am holding the womb, the possibility of the plans coming to fruition. I have a fear of having a baby because of the responsibility - I am also afraid of responsibility. The two babies would be the job and school, and I am afraid to have them. My friends support me in whatever I feel is best. Since I was feeling like leaving, but not completely, the breaking out was more of a game than serious. The woman with the first man, she could be my case worker or a part of my psyche that is allowing me to make it with plan number one. The second plan, school, is more of a background thing and I'm not sure about how I'm going to make it mesh with the job, so that is why the second man did not know about the baby of the first. Going underground signifies a safe place to wait until the plans come to fruition. Like the womb, the underground signifies a place where I cannot abort the babies before they come into my life for me to have to take care of no matter what.... Basically I cannot abort the plans for the job and school until I get them underway. The woman dissapearing meant that she was not going to harbor any jealousy for the plans made and she would not interfere. Basically that meant that the part of me that might hate the possibility of job and school because it would stunt my freedom, that part of me will wait for the job and school to get underway too. All parts of me are basically ready for the job and school. I am just afraid. My friends will be there and support me no matter what I decide, because that is who they are.
Listening to: Deftones 'Change'
There was a man, and a woman. The woman was blonde, and the man was dark haired. I first saw them on the news. My friends and I were sitting in a restaurant, and we saw them at a table. Then we all went with them to a place through a wooden door, underground. We stayed there. Somehow the man put his seed in me, and I found that it was growing into a baby. Another man, there was an ominous feeling around both men, also put seed in me that was growing into a baby. I carried two babies in my womb. Both men wanted me. They needed the seeds grown to fruition. I liked both men, but I wasn't sure about the babies. The first man, after seeing me a couple times, knew that there was other seed in my womb. The second man still did not know. My friends were there sometimes, and everytime they were they played a game of break-out of the earth. They would devise shifty ideas of breaking out, even though they were not captive except that the men knew that I might leave with them if they got out. The men wanted to see their seeds come to fruition. If a friend was not with me though, she could leave freely. The woman who was with the first man, she disappeared into the background to do her own thing and let the man take control.
I relate the two men to the two new plans I've made - to get a job, and to go to beauty school. I am holding the womb, the possibility of the plans coming to fruition. I have a fear of having a baby because of the responsibility - I am also afraid of responsibility. The two babies would be the job and school, and I am afraid to have them. My friends support me in whatever I feel is best. Since I was feeling like leaving, but not completely, the breaking out was more of a game than serious. The woman with the first man, she could be my case worker or a part of my psyche that is allowing me to make it with plan number one. The second plan, school, is more of a background thing and I'm not sure about how I'm going to make it mesh with the job, so that is why the second man did not know about the baby of the first. Going underground signifies a safe place to wait until the plans come to fruition. Like the womb, the underground signifies a place where I cannot abort the babies before they come into my life for me to have to take care of no matter what.... Basically I cannot abort the plans for the job and school until I get them underway. The woman dissapearing meant that she was not going to harbor any jealousy for the plans made and she would not interfere. Basically that meant that the part of me that might hate the possibility of job and school because it would stunt my freedom, that part of me will wait for the job and school to get underway too. All parts of me are basically ready for the job and school. I am just afraid. My friends will be there and support me no matter what I decide, because that is who they are.
Listening to: Deftones 'Change'
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I don't see why many people think it's a shitty way to look at life. Hell, I'm pleasantly surprised 80% of the time.
Thanks though