EdmundOG moves back to school today, close enough to make me feel like a dick for not visiting, far enough away to realize how much of a pain in the ass it is on the way there.
I was really depressed on Sunday, no real reason why, just feeling lonely... happens every once in a while, but i have good ideas when it happens.
Like this time i think i've decided to do some traveling after I get out of my college, should be not this comming semester but the one following.
I need to get away, I guess I am sick of college, or maybe its just my college. Either way come next winter if Iv'e gotten my degree or not im gonna go...somewhere.
Not sure where. Canada maybe, Mexico, Europe, Australia, India, Japan, hell even cross country maybe like from here to Vegas to San Fransisco, maybe down to New Orleans, i dont know, and i mean not just as a vacation but like for a month or two or if things work out maybe longer.
When i was young i lived in almost ten different states in the US before kindergarden, then i moved to Jersey and Ive pretty much been there ever since, other than about 3 vacations in that time and a few trips to NYC.
But by next winter i'll be able to take almost $15k out of my account and still have some $ left just in case.
I think i just want to do something with my life finally, even if I am not sure what.
i mean as of now i dont have anything keeping me hear other than finishing college. and after that i'd just have to go to another school for 2 years to be taken seriously by a real production house.
Sure all my friends are here, but... sometimes they seem so distant. and they will be here afterwords... besides its that time again, like after highschool, you never hear from more than half the people again even if they were good friends.
Or maybe I'm still just depressed.
But i was thinking about it and the cost of living around here is just to high, i couldnt even pay for an apartment around here even if i had like 4-5 roommates. my friend Alex is looking and he cant find anything decent for less than $1100 a month. My car insurance is over $300 a month and last year i made under $5k. So I would have to move to start up on my own, but there is just that feeling of uncertanty.
I still dont know what the hell i want to do for a career, ive been told i am good at alot of things and i could, i guess, find a job doing any number of them, but... i mean will i make enought to live comfortably? Do i have the discipline to Support and provide For myself?
put its proably all part of the gamble every one faces when they step out on their own.
as per usual I don't know.
I was really depressed on Sunday, no real reason why, just feeling lonely... happens every once in a while, but i have good ideas when it happens.
Like this time i think i've decided to do some traveling after I get out of my college, should be not this comming semester but the one following.
I need to get away, I guess I am sick of college, or maybe its just my college. Either way come next winter if Iv'e gotten my degree or not im gonna go...somewhere.
Not sure where. Canada maybe, Mexico, Europe, Australia, India, Japan, hell even cross country maybe like from here to Vegas to San Fransisco, maybe down to New Orleans, i dont know, and i mean not just as a vacation but like for a month or two or if things work out maybe longer.
When i was young i lived in almost ten different states in the US before kindergarden, then i moved to Jersey and Ive pretty much been there ever since, other than about 3 vacations in that time and a few trips to NYC.
But by next winter i'll be able to take almost $15k out of my account and still have some $ left just in case.
I think i just want to do something with my life finally, even if I am not sure what.
i mean as of now i dont have anything keeping me hear other than finishing college. and after that i'd just have to go to another school for 2 years to be taken seriously by a real production house.
Sure all my friends are here, but... sometimes they seem so distant. and they will be here afterwords... besides its that time again, like after highschool, you never hear from more than half the people again even if they were good friends.
Or maybe I'm still just depressed.
But i was thinking about it and the cost of living around here is just to high, i couldnt even pay for an apartment around here even if i had like 4-5 roommates. my friend Alex is looking and he cant find anything decent for less than $1100 a month. My car insurance is over $300 a month and last year i made under $5k. So I would have to move to start up on my own, but there is just that feeling of uncertanty.
I still dont know what the hell i want to do for a career, ive been told i am good at alot of things and i could, i guess, find a job doing any number of them, but... i mean will i make enought to live comfortably? Do i have the discipline to Support and provide For myself?
put its proably all part of the gamble every one faces when they step out on their own.
as per usual I don't know.
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Go Canada!