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Do you ever just wonder if you are doing the right things? For quite some time, Ive wondered that. I dont necessarily think I've done a lot of bad stuff but I've put myself in some bad situations. I know I put some people in bad situations too and I know I can't take any of it back. Yesterday when I was at work, all I did was think about the past and try to plan for the future. Well after all of my thinking, my head started to hurt and I already had plans to go out with Justin. We went out for dinner and other things then went out with one of our friends.I really didnt think too much about it last night and so the odd thing was when I woke up this morning, I was really happy and as much as I think I have fucked things up, I really haven't. I just woke up feeling happy and content with things. I know it sounds odd but I know what I have to get done and I know exactly what I have to do.
I guess I really have to thank all of this mandatory OT we have had at work for this bit of inspiration.( When you go into a Rite Aid and pick up makeup, cologe,vitamins, or medicine, think of me cussing at the computer for not working right ). I've been working there for almost 5 years and I really need to get out. A lot of my coworkers are happy being stuck in a warehouse but I hate it. I guess I never wanted to leave because I was stuck in a situation where I really needed my money but now since Im back home, I can afford to start looking as soon as school is done. I guess what Im trying to say is that I finally got my head on straight and Im happy with whats going on. Yeah work sucks but I always have my jokes that I can pull plus my destructive side.
Thanks for sitting through this if you did. If not, oh well. You didnt miss too much