finella

I'm really getting depressed at my lack of money recently. All the money I do have is going towards bills and food, so I can barely afford to enjoy myself.

I wanna take my boy out to dinner, out to the zoo and to see Toy Story 3. I also keep adding new beautiful dresses to my Amazon wishlist.. I just want to be able to treat myself to make myself feel a bit better within myself.

I deserve a treat don't I? It sucks living alone at 18 years old.. and I can't look for a job until I know where I am moving to. But i've not heard back ANYTHING about another flat. I hate this shitty one i'm in. Everything is falling to bits.

I know it seems very little to get so negative about.. they say money doesn't buy you happiness, which I agree with, but it helps. It just really gets me down. I see all my friends, who live with thier parents, can have their part time job.. with nothing to worry about financially. Always in beautiful new clothes, out every weekend without fail. I've no right to get jealous..but I can't lie that I wouldn't want that life sometimes.

I know i've got my independence, which I suppose is great. But not so great when I can't afford to do anything. I get my exam results next week which will determine what uni I will get in to. What if i'm not good enough??

I want a pretty new frock and a night out in Edinburgh. That'll cheer me up. -sigh-

Apologies for my rant. I'm just wanting change.
Cheer me up? Love you all, SG friends
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