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Saturday Jun 05, 2004

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So the screening went well.

No one hated the movie, even though there are some things to work on, aka sound, some digital effects, and a minor reworking of some ending material.

*sighs*

It feels weird to be almost done this film. So many steps:

I graduated film school in December 2000 and we started writing.

We got funding July 2001.

We started shooting May 2002.

We fired one of our producers and finally got our editing system almost two years later in January of 2004 and I've been editing for 5 months.

I have given so much money, and time.

I lost a girlfriend and any semblance of a life because of it.

I worked assfuck jobs in warehouses packing boxes full of shit for people I'll never meet.

I served coffee to underachieving overdressed fucklicks with nothing better to do than snobbily grab my perfect latte and drop their 13 cents worth of change into a jar without even looking at me.

I sold all of my CDs, books and (some of) my movies to pay for bills etc.

The darkest moments of my life were spent staring hungrily at the flickering of a projector light at the end of this fucked up tunnel.

But...

It's all SO worth it because the film will be everything I ever hoped for. Last night was the first public screening and it doesnt suck. IT DOESNT SUCK!

It's so sad, though. It's like watching your child pack up and leave the house. Even though I have no idea what the hell that feels like.. I can only assume its something like when a piece of art has taken you on such a wild ride and then you have to get off.

Makes me want to climb on board another one.

whatever

But I fucking love you all. God It's good to be back here.

kiss kiss love

(I will see some of you on the 10th)
VIEW 16 of 16 COMMENTS
reese:
well...he was a very good friend of both my boyfriend and me.
But...as triangles tend to go...tension grew...shit happened...I did some highly regettable things...and now we don't speak anymore.
how's that for vague!?
Jun 7, 2004
beledi:
i didn't think so. you're much too good and pure to do something like that. smile
Jun 7, 2004

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