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Monday Oct 06, 2003

Oct 6, 2003
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Isn't it strange how the everything works itself out...

In the last month, I have been terrified... I couldn't make rent, I had no food in the house and any chances I had for quick cash had all evaporated, i.e my parents were tapped, my brother quit his job and I had no more valuables to hock.

All I had was time alone to lick the wounds of my failed attempt to be a provider blackeyed

I have been working on my film for three years. It has been one of the most difficult, heart wrenching and painful processes of my life. I have endured hardships like no one could imagine and all the while I had only my love for film and my drive to do this for my life as a reason to withstand it all.

Let me tell you there were sometimes when it almost wasn't enough.

But I plunked and I plodded merrily along doing what I thought I had to: watching my favorite films with commentary in hopes of gaining new insights, reading the autobiographies of my heroes in an anttempt to pullsome piece of advice or some glimmer of hope that no matter what, if I just stayed focused the way out would present itself.

Last day before rent I called the landlord for more time...

And that very day I got a call from an old friend of mine looking to cross my palms with silver to do some graphics work for a video he was working on. Out of the blue, no calling no anything. Just "I'll pay you 20 bucks an hour to do this, okay?"

O-fucking-kay, I thought silently screaming hazzzzah. Fucking perfect.

Then today, I got my government certifed cheque for 100 bucks for GST refund. Goddamn these things have impeccable timing.

AND my girlfriends dad owed me some money for work I had done at his Curling club, so that took care of another 200 bucks.


My friends I have said that if you ask the universe it shall grant you what you desire.

Zero hour. Nine AM, folks. Rent is due. I have already deposited the cheque.







Stick to your guns and shoot em dead. kiss
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theres a little something, something in my pics for you. check out the last one. dont worry , its not more pics of my boobs. smile
Oct 7, 2003
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city of the living dead rocked. it takes alot for me to be disappointed in zombie movies. yes i will rent the beyond. im trying to get into the halloween mood yaknow. i might rent it this weekend, im also gonna rent the audition because i have never seen it. mmmmm, sunday with some nice stella and some scary movies.....i fuckin love fall! wink
Oct 7, 2003

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