Login
Forgot Password?

OR

Login with Google Login with Twitter Login with Facebook
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • SuicideGirls
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
Vital Stats

fil

Member Since 2002

Followers 20 Following 6

  • Everything
  • Photos
  • Video
  • Blogs
  • Groups
  • From Others

Monday Oct 06, 2003

Oct 6, 2003
0
  • Facebook
  • Tweet
  • Email
By popular request, another journal entry.

I don't keep a proper journal anymore. I think it was making me crazy. Some people think that crazy or iffeminate people keep journals, but I think that keeping a journal perpetuates those qualities in people. Getting in touch with your emotions and being retrospective in excrutiating detail is a feminine thing to do. It's not bad, but it's not necessarily good either. It makes you moody or too self conscious, meaning not only that you are anxious about yourself, but that you are simply more self-aware.

Self awareness can be a good thing if you're aiming to improve yourself, but if you're only going to cry about why you're the way you are (happens all too often) then I recommend you spend less time thinking, more time doing.

Nowadays, I just have a book next to the bed filled with blank pages so that if I get some kind of brilliant idea in the middle of the night, or I establish a train of thought I can't afford to derail, I can jot it down. Of course, I'm self conscious about this too - so I only write down things I'd want other people to read. I always address my readers, not myself. I think I have a huge ego.

I write a lot about the soul, because there's something about self-awareness (not of being knowledgeable about what or who you are, so much as being knowledgeable THAT YOU ARE) that miffs me. I'm very much a proponent of scientific determinism, but then I wonder how an automoton like a human can be self aware? What is it about the mind that gives you a sense of indiviiduality? Is the soul a projection of an immutable reality, or does the soul help shape reality?

ANSWER ME THIS:
1. Do you believe in the soul?
2. If yes, can you describe what it is?
3. If no, why not? What do you define it as?
fuji:
porque tenho um rapaz muito giro.

i believe in soul food. fucking delicious, betch
Oct 6, 2003
adelina:
YAY! A new journal entry! biggrin Yes, because you keep a journal here you are so much more girlie. Everyone will think what a pansy you are. Ha ha ha tongue

(1) No Soul.
(2) See above.
(3) The "soul" is about as real as "santa claus" is... What individuals perceive as the soul is merely a consequence of the innumerable neurons and synapses that are firing and re-firing in the cerebral cortex, corpus callosum and other various parts that make up the human brain.
Oct 7, 2003

More Blogs

  • 02.28.05
    1

    Monday Feb 28, 2005

    Since SG doesn't support straight HTML, I'm getting impatient updatin…
  • 02.21.05
    0

    Monday Feb 21, 2005

    The concept of "what we're made of" has been crossing my mind a lot i…
  • 02.16.05
    1

    Wednesday Feb 16, 2005

    Sometimes I'm surprised by the feelings that I share or don't share w…
  • 02.11.05
    1

    Friday Feb 11, 2005

    News sources reporting on the 52 warnings the FAA got of the 9/11 att…
  • 01.26.05
    0

    Wednesday Jan 26, 2005

    Yeah, okay, so it's been a million years since I last updated. Big wh…
  • 12.07.04
    2

    Tuesday Dec 07, 2004

    Long time no update, huh? I've been working pretty hard on my latest …
  • 11.11.04
    2

    Thursday Nov 11, 2004

    My brother just got a free iPod yesterday. I thought it was bullshit,…
  • 11.02.04
    1

    Wednesday Nov 03, 2004

    The election hurts my heart.
  • 10.10.04
    0

    Monday Oct 11, 2004

    The death of Superman.
  • 09.28.04
    3

    Wednesday Sep 29, 2004

    Didn't get as drunk as I hoped on my first bar trip. The night ended …

We at SuicideGirls have been celebrating alternative pin-up girls for:

23
years
8
months
18
days
  • 5,509,826 fans
  • 41,393 fans
  • 10,327,617 followers
  • 4,589 SuicideGirls
  • 1,123,311 followers
  • 14,907,564 photos
  • 321,315 followers
  • 61,361,379 comments
  • Join
  • Profiles
  • Groups
  • Photos
  • Videos
  • Shop
  • Help
  • About
  • Press
  • LIVE

Legal/Tos | DMCA | Privacy Policy | 18 U.S.C. 2257 Record-Keeping Requirements Compliance Statement | Contact Us | Vendo Payment Support
©SuicideGirls 2001-2025

Press enter to search
Fast Hi-res

Click here to join & see it all...

Crop your photo