I've cried twice in two days. I never cry ever and here I am a big soppy mess. yuck. I hate pain.
There is something thereputic though, about kicking off your shoes and tearing off down the beach like a bat outta hell. the ocean is amazing. I havn't quite made friends with the pacific yet, but we'll get there. baby steps.
I guess that's the key to all this. baby steps. maybe I'm expecting it to be perfect right now! neglecting the idea that a tree must first be a sappling. maybe I don't know what I want. and maybe everything I think I know has been completly shaken at it's core and the few things that I took as stable (or realativly) are also proving themselves to fluid as well. Maybe we're all in a state of flux and all of this is nothing more than a figment of some crazy being's imagination.
maybe I'm just tired.
~fig
There is something thereputic though, about kicking off your shoes and tearing off down the beach like a bat outta hell. the ocean is amazing. I havn't quite made friends with the pacific yet, but we'll get there. baby steps.
I guess that's the key to all this. baby steps. maybe I'm expecting it to be perfect right now! neglecting the idea that a tree must first be a sappling. maybe I don't know what I want. and maybe everything I think I know has been completly shaken at it's core and the few things that I took as stable (or realativly) are also proving themselves to fluid as well. Maybe we're all in a state of flux and all of this is nothing more than a figment of some crazy being's imagination.
maybe I'm just tired.
~fig
the pacific is a scary scary place, beautiful on the outside, but terrifing on the inside.