fierhauk

Another end to another more or less mindless week healthily balanced with repetative work and ambitious drinking with no where near enough sleep every now and then. I sometimes amaze myself with the amount of times I say `I'll just stay home tonight and get to bed early' only to get a call around 9 or 10 and run out till all hours drinking or shooting pool or doing some other activity bereft of any real purpose other than entertainment. Guess I'll enjoy it while I still can.... not young forever you know?

Its more likely I am just making up for lost time. Never really got around years ago when I was younger and just in the military and then I was all `married' and that. Now I guess I am living the fast life and embracing being jaded that someone worthwhile will come along any time soon. At least I make the most of that jaded time and keep myself occupied.

So... its nearly 9 at night in March and it must have been 80 today. Not sure if I am ready for spring to come on so strong but last summer was kinda weak so it'll be nice to have a full one this year. I think its more that I am dissatisfied with my work (all work, no pay) that makes me want to be outside more than earning money to spend when I am not working. Thats the eternal struggle....how much shit are we willing to go through for what they pay us. I understand doing what you love, but if you cant enjoy yourself when you're not doing it you wont love it that long.... How about a test of this...one to see what you think and another to see if anyone actually read this whole goddamn rant of mine

Whats your feeling...would you rather bust your ass at something you love and seel very little money from it, dooming your life to the `i'd love to but I cant really stretch to payday if I do'? Or would you prefer to do something you can enjoy doing (but may not LOVE) and get enough compensation to enjoy your spare time?

Inquiring minds.....anxiously await...