Today was sort of therapeutic for me. I spent the whole day cleaning out a bunch of crap out of the dining room. I have four boxes and a bag full of junk for the Goodwill.
I talked to my mom for hours on the phone while I cleaned. She's so bored since she broke her ankle. She just sits at home and does nothing. Today she watched the maid clean though so I guess that's something.
I watched the movie The Whale Rider tonight. It was so good I'm adding to my favorite films list.
I can't sleep. Again.
I have come to the realization that my relationship is in trouble. I know that no one likes a bad news story but I have to get this out or I'll never get any sleep.
Where do I start? I guess it started with the sex. We never fuck anymore. That's reason enough for me to hit the road.
Also, her kids are fucking looser assholes and I'm tired of playing mom. She is so uninvolved in their lives. Her 18 year old is a whore/looser/lazy ass/trailer park trash kind of a girl. I'm glad she moved out. Now if only I could take all her shit that's all over my house and get rid of it I'd be even happier.
Her 16 year old is also a looser but in the general lack of motivation average fucked up teenager kind of way. He goes to fuck up school because he's to lazy to get his self the fuck out of bed in the morning so he never made it to school before lunch. He is bi-polar and wont take his meds unless one of us stands there and makes sure he swallows the pills. He leaves whenever he feels like it, comes home when he feels like it, makes a big fucking mess for me to clean up, etc. I can't take any more. I feel like all of the responsibility is one me because she works and I don't.
Then there's her job. She comes home from work, eats dinner and goes to bed. That's pretty much all she does six days a week. It's getting fucking old. I feel like such a bitch for feeling like this too because she is supporting me and all I can think about is how she gives all of her energy to her job.
My sister is graduating from San Jose State next weekend and were going to stay the night at my mom's house. T only got one day off so we have to leave Friday after she gets off work. It's a four hour drive at best. Then the graduation is at 7:30 am and will no doubt last all day long. T has to be at work at 5:30 am on Sunday.
I have decided to stay with my mom for a week. I have to get away for awhile. Being in this house is making me crazy.
I talked to my mom for hours on the phone while I cleaned. She's so bored since she broke her ankle. She just sits at home and does nothing. Today she watched the maid clean though so I guess that's something.
I watched the movie The Whale Rider tonight. It was so good I'm adding to my favorite films list.
I can't sleep. Again.
I have come to the realization that my relationship is in trouble. I know that no one likes a bad news story but I have to get this out or I'll never get any sleep.
Where do I start? I guess it started with the sex. We never fuck anymore. That's reason enough for me to hit the road.
Also, her kids are fucking looser assholes and I'm tired of playing mom. She is so uninvolved in their lives. Her 18 year old is a whore/looser/lazy ass/trailer park trash kind of a girl. I'm glad she moved out. Now if only I could take all her shit that's all over my house and get rid of it I'd be even happier.
Her 16 year old is also a looser but in the general lack of motivation average fucked up teenager kind of way. He goes to fuck up school because he's to lazy to get his self the fuck out of bed in the morning so he never made it to school before lunch. He is bi-polar and wont take his meds unless one of us stands there and makes sure he swallows the pills. He leaves whenever he feels like it, comes home when he feels like it, makes a big fucking mess for me to clean up, etc. I can't take any more. I feel like all of the responsibility is one me because she works and I don't.
Then there's her job. She comes home from work, eats dinner and goes to bed. That's pretty much all she does six days a week. It's getting fucking old. I feel like such a bitch for feeling like this too because she is supporting me and all I can think about is how she gives all of her energy to her job.
My sister is graduating from San Jose State next weekend and were going to stay the night at my mom's house. T only got one day off so we have to leave Friday after she gets off work. It's a four hour drive at best. Then the graduation is at 7:30 am and will no doubt last all day long. T has to be at work at 5:30 am on Sunday.
I have decided to stay with my mom for a week. I have to get away for awhile. Being in this house is making me crazy.
mattthegoon:
welcome to sgAR!!
