I have known my "best friend" Jeani for fourteen years. I have been slowly slipping away from her since I moved back east. I have to admit that I have always known that we have little in common. But in the last threeish years life has really changed the two of us. I am older and have grown up into what I hope is a great woman with a good head on her shoulders. I love my life and my friends and family, some of whom slip back and forth between those to labels at any given time. She has her life and her faith and her work. Everything she is, is what she was when I left home and my life in Washington state behind. She has moved across the world, changed jobs, gotten married and pregnant and is still the same person she used to be. The only thing about her that has changed is her need to be the main person in control of everything. Which hasn't changed so much as it has gotten bigger/worse.
I realized last night, when my husband; our friend Ethan and I where hanging out with her that she is a raving bitch. Not only that but that she makes me want to hurt her. Which until last night, never happened (not ONCE in 14 years) When the idea of playing pool fell out the window because my ID is expired and the pool hall is also a bar, she wanted to play putt putt golf. We had already told her no as none of us enjoy that game. Well she decided that putt putt was what we needed to do. The guys got annoyed and walked off to the truck with out saying anything. I did a sigh type thing and said, "Well they are annoyed."
Her next statement is what made me angry enough to hurt her.
She said
"Well, I am not just going to bend over and take their shit."
Normally this wouldn't irritate anyone. But it pissed me the fuck off. I have been taking her shit, and shit from her fucking family for years. And not saying a god damn thing about it. I dealt with it because I considered her my friend and you know, what doesnt kill you just makes you stronger. Well not any more. My husband is my family and our friend Ethan is one of my closest friends in the world. I love him like a brother and that asshole was saying shit that didn't need to come out of her mouth. I realized last night that I am done. It's taken me four years and a broken heart but to be honest, its alright now. I am not sad that she wont be part of my life. I don't feel as though I will be missing out. I am just fed up. I have fun with her when we are goofing off and remembering the past, but that is all we have. So for the sake of the past I am not going to be a jerk and blow her off until after Christmas. This next year will be better with out her and her bullshit in it.
God Bless and Merry Christmas.
I realized last night, when my husband; our friend Ethan and I where hanging out with her that she is a raving bitch. Not only that but that she makes me want to hurt her. Which until last night, never happened (not ONCE in 14 years) When the idea of playing pool fell out the window because my ID is expired and the pool hall is also a bar, she wanted to play putt putt golf. We had already told her no as none of us enjoy that game. Well she decided that putt putt was what we needed to do. The guys got annoyed and walked off to the truck with out saying anything. I did a sigh type thing and said, "Well they are annoyed."
Her next statement is what made me angry enough to hurt her.
She said
"Well, I am not just going to bend over and take their shit."
Normally this wouldn't irritate anyone. But it pissed me the fuck off. I have been taking her shit, and shit from her fucking family for years. And not saying a god damn thing about it. I dealt with it because I considered her my friend and you know, what doesnt kill you just makes you stronger. Well not any more. My husband is my family and our friend Ethan is one of my closest friends in the world. I love him like a brother and that asshole was saying shit that didn't need to come out of her mouth. I realized last night that I am done. It's taken me four years and a broken heart but to be honest, its alright now. I am not sad that she wont be part of my life. I don't feel as though I will be missing out. I am just fed up. I have fun with her when we are goofing off and remembering the past, but that is all we have. So for the sake of the past I am not going to be a jerk and blow her off until after Christmas. This next year will be better with out her and her bullshit in it.
God Bless and Merry Christmas.
Some people change for the better, some stay the same for the better and some do either and get worse.
Glad to see that you are going to move on and put it behind you. You've got bigger and better things to focus on and celebrate now.
PS - What kind of Pie? We usually get French Silk and I think Pumpkin and Apple for our celebrations.