So this past weekend I guess I finally hit my wall. Along with my surgery in May on my shoulder, I have also had several other nagging injuries that prevents me from working out/ding the things I want. to go along with those things, I also have "other" ailments that are both embarrassing and frustrating. All of these things combined I think are also mentally preventing me from pursuing any sort of social life as well. This weekend all of this came to a head and I just finally shut myself down to the outside world. Im certainly not proud of this achievement, most definitely embarrassed over it. I pride myself as being "the strong one". To my friends, Ive always been the one they can lean on, or the one they know will give them an honest answer, not just one they want to hear. I feel like I failed myself, if that makes sense. But I just turned my "switch" off. I guess it works for me though. I feel better today. But its definitely embarrassing when my 71 year old pop has a busier social life than I do. But he deserves it. The past 40 years plus hes been involved with my mom( she passed away in 06), and a gf up until last year. Im proud that hes putting himself out there. Boy I guessed I changed the subject huh. But anyway, I dont know what made me write this. I dont really know what my point is, or if I was going to ask questions or what. Im just rambling now. Well, if anyone actually does read this, thanks for taking the time to let me open up, I appreciate that. Any input I will take with much appreciation....
Eric
