ferfachu5000

nothing nothing nothing, yet, everything is going on in my head. i think i'm dealing with things great, like a pro, but then out of no where i'm driving to work and i start to gasp and a panic ensues.
I feel a whirlwind in my mind and its so easy to smile and pretend things are easy as pie, but inside, really truly deeply inside, i am just winging it.
I don't know what i'm doing.
i'm drinking everyday.
i'm behaving like i never have before.
i don't think twice about things i should.
what the hell.

i have a bruise on my palm and its feels strange.