My best guy friend EVER killed himself Friday.
His name was Aaron. Our friendship was like no other I've ever had. He'd do anything for me, he told me everything -graphic details of his sex life, secrets animosity towards his family, EVERYTHING.
...everything except his suicidal tendencies, i suppose.
why didn't he tell me...
of all things, why couldn't he tell me something so important?
this doesn't make any fucking sense. Not Aaron. He wouldn't do this, not the real Aaron...
when i'm sad, need clarity on anything, i call Aaron. He's always been there...
...FUCK who do i call now?


God damn it.
i really wish everyone i know would stop dying.