fenway

The drama has finally subsided, but not without hurt feelings--
Brett and I have a lot to work on if we are going to make it as a couple. I've decided that there are freedoms I need to have, and there is compromise, but it can't always be in his favor. After my nervous/emotional breakdown on Sunday niight, my mom reminded me never to settle for a relationship that doesn't make me truly happy. Brett and I went to a cookout yesterday--fireworks and all! It was a good time, and helped us to bridge the gap....but we will see what happens when an issue arises again. Right now, I'm only about 50-50 sure that we will be okay, but I will give 110 percent.

The downside (if there is even an upside), is that I can no longer be friends with Michael at this time. People are right when they say that guy-girl friendships can lead to romantic feelings. I knew I should have backed off when I started relying on him to be there for me...He's a good person, I fell in love with him, and now I have to get over it. I know I hurt his feelings in this process, but I don't even know how he feels about me. I know he cares, I know he doesn't want a girlfriend...Maybe it's a good thing that he doesn't like me back. That would have been a tough decision...Brett or Michael?

WOW....

So, anyway, I am sure I will be fine in a couple of weeks. It's really hard to just stop talking to someone you love (and I am dreading Thursday evening at Sylvan), but it's not the first time that my love has been unrequitted.

Today should be a nice relaxing day. I want to watch the World Cup game...maybe go swimming at my house...I start my summer class tomorrow afternoon. Wednesdays are going to suck: work in the am, school in afternoon, work again in the pm. EW.

Hope everyone has a safe and happy 4th of July...

Love,
-Fenway-