"Maybe I am a crowded mind
I watch your eyes glaze over
Stared down at the floor
You were amazing to me
I was amazing to you
But here we go again" ~O.A.R.
I woke up this morning feeling nauseous...I couldn't believe that Michael and I were really that mean to each other. I've been mad and hurt before, but never towards someone who I know truly cares about me. It's one thing to end a friendship amicably (we have to work together, after all) but to be that resentful and insulting was completely out of line...for both of us. Besides, no matter how much I like him, I have a boyfriend and Michael doesn't want me as a girlfriend anyway. I definitely shouldn't have accused him of using me...but I have a hot temper sometimes and I was in the midst of an emotional breakdown. Thankfully, my friend Terena was able to help me realize that crushes happen and they go away. If only she knew the whole story, but that would be scandalous and who needs more tabloid drama? Anyway, Mike texted me and wanted to go some place and talk about the situation. I would have loved to, except I had relatives coming over for dinner. Blah. I hate faking sincerity when I really don't give a shit about them. I don't know when he and I will talk in person, but I felt a lot better just knowing that we both regretted the fight last night. It's not going to matter in the end though: there is no resolution that will not cause me pain and tears. I can't just wish away feelings and/or make someone like me back.
Anyway, all the schools I sub for are going to be out for the summer within the next couple of days, so work is scarce. Fine by me. That's what unemployment is for! I have another interview next Thursday...this could be the most promising one yet, but I don't want to jinx myself....
The Red Sox game was fucking annoying! Why, oh why, is Tavares even on the roster? Whenever I see him on the mound, it's like an automatic loss in the books. Who gives up a walk-off GRAND SLAM? Jesus Christ.
I really, really, REALLY want to buy an mp3 player, but I have no knowledge of them. I'm sure some of you can enlighten me. I'm still living in the CD player and headphones age. Hey, I'm not a big fan of change...this web layout being one of the things on my list that is aggravating me. I can barely see anything.
Brett let me drive his 2003 BMW today. Damn, I don't care much about cars, but those are NICE!
And I finally, finally, FINALLY figured out how to use the elimination method to solve challenging algebra problems. What a freakin' genius.
-Fenway-
PS There is an SG in limbo who has my old name Odessa. She's the second, behind Amethyst who hasn't updated in like a year and has only one set. I guess I have good taste in names.
I watch your eyes glaze over
Stared down at the floor
You were amazing to me
I was amazing to you
But here we go again" ~O.A.R.
I woke up this morning feeling nauseous...I couldn't believe that Michael and I were really that mean to each other. I've been mad and hurt before, but never towards someone who I know truly cares about me. It's one thing to end a friendship amicably (we have to work together, after all) but to be that resentful and insulting was completely out of line...for both of us. Besides, no matter how much I like him, I have a boyfriend and Michael doesn't want me as a girlfriend anyway. I definitely shouldn't have accused him of using me...but I have a hot temper sometimes and I was in the midst of an emotional breakdown. Thankfully, my friend Terena was able to help me realize that crushes happen and they go away. If only she knew the whole story, but that would be scandalous and who needs more tabloid drama? Anyway, Mike texted me and wanted to go some place and talk about the situation. I would have loved to, except I had relatives coming over for dinner. Blah. I hate faking sincerity when I really don't give a shit about them. I don't know when he and I will talk in person, but I felt a lot better just knowing that we both regretted the fight last night. It's not going to matter in the end though: there is no resolution that will not cause me pain and tears. I can't just wish away feelings and/or make someone like me back.
Anyway, all the schools I sub for are going to be out for the summer within the next couple of days, so work is scarce. Fine by me. That's what unemployment is for! I have another interview next Thursday...this could be the most promising one yet, but I don't want to jinx myself....
The Red Sox game was fucking annoying! Why, oh why, is Tavares even on the roster? Whenever I see him on the mound, it's like an automatic loss in the books. Who gives up a walk-off GRAND SLAM? Jesus Christ.
I really, really, REALLY want to buy an mp3 player, but I have no knowledge of them. I'm sure some of you can enlighten me. I'm still living in the CD player and headphones age. Hey, I'm not a big fan of change...this web layout being one of the things on my list that is aggravating me. I can barely see anything.
Brett let me drive his 2003 BMW today. Damn, I don't care much about cars, but those are NICE!
And I finally, finally, FINALLY figured out how to use the elimination method to solve challenging algebra problems. What a freakin' genius.
-Fenway-
PS There is an SG in limbo who has my old name Odessa. She's the second, behind Amethyst who hasn't updated in like a year and has only one set. I guess I have good taste in names.
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