I've finally been referred to a Gastroenterologist, but the appointment is not until 11th September. So my plans for going to Sardinia are a bit up in the air now, coz I was going to be away over that time. Never mind. Maybe I'll just save my money in the hope that I can fly home for Christmas. I'm not even sure I want to do that, home is so different now.
Work is boring, life is pretty boring too this week.
I feel particularly lost this week, not sure why. I'm constantly questioning what I am doing and I guess I couldn't come up with the answers. The whole event at work last week has made me question myself and who I am again. I am harsh on myself, but it seems, everyone is harsh on me too. I thought I was a nice person, but sometimes I wonder.
Some of the guys at work (who aren't single) were gobsmacked that I am single. We were having some discussion yesterday. I think I have just resigned myself to the fact that I am going to be single forever. Maybe I am too picky, maybe other people are too picky, I dunno. People always criticize me for being something, too loud, too blunt, too honest, but fuck it, I'm not changing who I am
It's enough that I hate myself without everyone else getting in on the act too.
It's cold outside, where did the summer piss off to?
I sometimes wish that things had been different in the last few years.
Work is boring, life is pretty boring too this week.
I feel particularly lost this week, not sure why. I'm constantly questioning what I am doing and I guess I couldn't come up with the answers. The whole event at work last week has made me question myself and who I am again. I am harsh on myself, but it seems, everyone is harsh on me too. I thought I was a nice person, but sometimes I wonder.
Some of the guys at work (who aren't single) were gobsmacked that I am single. We were having some discussion yesterday. I think I have just resigned myself to the fact that I am going to be single forever. Maybe I am too picky, maybe other people are too picky, I dunno. People always criticize me for being something, too loud, too blunt, too honest, but fuck it, I'm not changing who I am
It's enough that I hate myself without everyone else getting in on the act too.
It's cold outside, where did the summer piss off to?
I sometimes wish that things had been different in the last few years.
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jackie:
your fab
12angrybadgers:
Okay, gotcha'. Yeah, I've been havin' a lot of that too, recently. You still off the meds? I dropped one because it was a monstrous pain in the ass to get the shit every month, plus, it was outrageously expensive. I don't understand why they make it easier to get illegal drugs than they do legal ones. It would be far cheaper and far easier to get crack instead.... [rambling] Anyway, do somethin' good for yourself, today. Hope you get to feelin' better! 